Intuition

It started last night.

I felt very uneasy, agitated, but couldn't
figure out why.
I "knew" something was going to happen.

Same thing this morning.

Well, after lunch I got a call from my dad.
My mother was in an ambulance on her way
to the hospital. She'd had a seizure.

Now if you've been reading my blog,
you'll know she's been through a lot
these past couple of months but has
been doing GREAT.

This was like a huge slap in the face -
for all of us.

Between Dylan dislocating his jaw in gym
and mom having a brain tumor, I've discovered
something about myself........

I AM NOT COOL DURING AN EMERGENCY!

I can't dial a phone - and all my numbers are progammed!
I can't talk and I forget to breathe.
And driving................crazy.

I always assumed I'd be a cool customer in an emergency.
I'd keep my cool, assess the situation, and act accordingly.

NOT.

My mother is doing much better.
They think it was an adverse reaction to one of the
hundreds of medications she's taking.
Hopefully they'll let her come home tomorrow.

As for me.....
I feel like I have an elephant sitting on my chest.

The good thing is that I find I have to keep moving.
When I got home, not only did I make dinner for Dylan,
but I made a weeks worth of chicken souvlaki and
did laundry.

I just have to remember to breathe....
and take a Xanax.